Nick-chan

I act as a fool and make jokes But all those plays and hoax, are just too see you smile, even if it is just for a while! I wait for a day to come, to hold you until I get numb, and I know it sounds dumb, but my heart is beating like a drum. And the songs it plays, are for the coming days, when I will be set ablaze, by your tenderness and grace! Your heart gives out a lovely strum, syncing with my beating drum, to form a happy, joyful hum. For all the happy days to come! And now that smile, which started all this rile, is there shining on your face, for me forever to embrace.

I laugh and sing and smile. Yet I feel left out on an isle. Hopeless and scared, alone again, full of misery, doubt and pain. I cover my face with a mask, so that no one would ask. “Why are you so sad?” Because I will get mad! Yet life is just another masque, Where everyone wears a mask, And has a secret task. Is this so hard to grasp? I laugh and sing and smile. Yet I have never felt so vile. So harmless, and yet hostile. I cant continue if this goes on I’ll…. P.S. The masque continues and I pass the trial Yet I am not the man that began this mile.

I wake up and i can still smell her perfume, reminding me of a thousand flowers bloom. I wake up and I can still feel her caress, her eyes looking at mine,her smile a bless. Everytime i close my eyes, she's there, the sunlight shining through her hair, her red, soft lips gently saying my name, her eyes burning with a passionate flame! Yet she is not there when I open my eyes, hitting me like a hammer falling from the skies, that she can never,in this lifetime,be with me. Because someone else holds her hearts key.

I wake up every day feeling like I am stuck in a dream Living in a world with not even one support beam A world hanging in the balance , hanging on a thread A world where even hope and happiness have fled I try and salvage my strength dwelling in the past Alas I cannot seem to find anything that will last So I try some hope, some strength to join with a suture By looking into the unknown , far and distant future! A little glimmer of hope is born in me Maybe this shall be my salvation, my key That little glimmer will turn into a flame The darkness  in my soul it shall tame

Alone and tired I find my self again, wondering if I am still normal ,still sane?! Thoughts going round my brain, reminding me of old forgotten pain. Talking to my one and only friend. Asking her some strength to lend, to assist me , to help me scend, my sorrow and misery to end. Lost like a grain in the sand, my only hope is she can understand, that she can remove my brand, to show me again how to stand!